Thursday, June 26, 2008

Contentment Checkup




From a worldly perspective I have never used my Children's Ministry degree since I graduated from Lincoln. I substitute taught (while I planned our wedding), lifegaurded (during Jeremy's internship), was a secretary (for Jeremy when we lived on the edge of Camp End of the World), and then I became a full time mom. I really didn't understand why God was calling me to stay at Lincoln when I choose to stay and get a ministry degree versus persuing a teaching degree. And some might doubt that decision since I haven't ever had a paycheck for that job, but now as a minister's wife I have no doubt God knew exactly what he was doing!

Still I tend to be an overthinker often doubting that I am making decisions that are in line with God's will for my life. So when someone calls you out of the blue and says, "We are looking for a youth minister & part time children's minister would you and your husband be interested?" it is truly a contentment checkup. I didn't even hesistate- I knew the answer was no. Hoorah! No, doubting if this was God's call, or questioning my decision to stay home. I finally feel like I am dead center in the middle of God's current call on my life. What a blessing! I have doubted so many previous decisions, sometimes to the point of it being rediculous. For example, when I decided to end a very unhealthy relationship in college the person asked me to not tell anyone and pray about it for three days because they didn't think I was doing what God wanted. And I acctually did it and questioned whether it was the right decision even though my friends and family were affirming me right and left!!

I love being a stay at home mom and I have no doubt that is the best decision for me & and my family. And I am so thankful the Lord has given me confidence in this area because I think I might have mentioned before I have a very strong-willed two year old! And from God's perspective I am doing the purest form of children's ministry everyday in my own home, I just won't see the paycheck until heaven. And seriously look at my co-workers-aren't they the cutest!