"I just can't get in front of it." -Mom's Night Out
Can I get an amen from the other mamas out there?
Over the last few months I've felt rusty. So many of the things I used to be good at I feel like I've lost.
I used to be organized. Now I live in chaos.
I used to be energetic and ready to take on the world. Now I'm tired. (Although I'm still willing to take on the world most days- I'm determined like that.)
I used to be fun. Now I'm just trying to make sure my kids are fed and bathed. And alive.
I used to blog. Now you are thinking...she blogged? I didn't know that!
I used to desire to be intentional. Now I put out fires.
In the weeks leading up to my birthday I was reflecting on the crazy mess that is my thought life and I decided I needed a challenge. A goal. And I decided I wanted to blog. Not as a scrapbook. But as an intentional outlet for the things that God is working out in me daily.
So for this 32nd year of my living and breathing I am going to attempt to write weekly on this little forgotten blog.
There it is. Typed out and official.
So far I'm off to a great start. My birthday was a week ago and yesterday I finally shared this made up goal with J. I'd already almost forgotten about it in the "fires" of the week. A broken stove. A stolen credit card. A new homework routine to learn. However today is one week from my birthday and so he suggested I get up and get going. So here I am.
Every Sunday morning I'm hoping to wake early and attempt to say something. I'm very certain I won't have something worth hearing on a weekly basis. But that is part of the challenge. Because the truth is that every week God is at work in my life challenging me. Sandpapering away at my rough edges. I'm hoping this "holy habit" will also fuel an awesome year of worship as I reflect each Sunday morning.
Now I'm going to hit publish before I chicken out. Let this year of blogging journey begin.
